Is it weird that I have to google my blog name to find my
site online? Maybe if I visited more often, I’d have it bookmarked. Idiot.
I admit it I have some sort of sicko love for
winter. It’s conditional. I love the cold. I love the icy, dry cold. I love
snow storms and being socked in for a day or two, with a full fridge and plenty
of logs to burn. I like my hair in winter, I like that I don’t sweat nearly as
much. I like to layer.
I won’t indulge those who cannot endure a 40 degree day
without shaking their mittened fists to the skies. Those who cannot WAIT until there is
a 68 degree day in January, even though it’s miserable, windy and raining. Yet,
to the huddled masses, yearning to breath free of fashionable scarves and
layers, it’s a Beautiful Day, because it’s WARM. People, how did we get to this
place where a nasty, windswept humid day of sideways rain (or better yet, the
fine-mist, that does your hair something special) is the day you choose over
the sunny, snow-duned sparkly days? Is it the labor of snow-removal? You and I both know
you have at least 5 teenagers with broad shoulders and their own shovels in
your ‘hood. And, you know you will put on your boots and search them out if one
doesn’t show up at your door first thing… so that argument’s not allowed. I’m
talking balls to the wall beautiful day. Sun shining. Snow stuck to trees, noses, everything. Sparkling. Enjoy it people. There’s sparkle in
the snow, find it, for fuck’s sake.
Well, this Winter, along with last Winter, I couldn’t find
it. The sparkle, or lack thereof. Not here, anyway. Gray cloudy gray, cloudy rain gray cloudy, rain… was the
haiku for these recent winters. The mere mention of snow, and I would run to
the Acme… and then nothing but a sugar-coating of snow would fall overnight,
and I’d have mean, nasty, snarling children to send to school for the
three-thousandth consecutive day in a row. No snow days ever again. I firmly
believe the Mid-Atlantic has turned sub-tropical, and we shall never again have
a proper snowstorm. What am I going to do with all of this food in my fridge?
My kids have sledded ONCE in their lives.
And the big one is almost 10… ONCE! By ten, I was careening down steep
embankments (sans headgear), across a wide parking lot, and directly into the
frozen creek… over and over and over again. I’m not sure my almost 10 year old
can even steer a flexible flyer. I’m not even sure his 6 year old brother knows
the color of snow.
This post was originally written a month ago, but I really
wanted to give this winter a fighting chance. It’s now the end of March, and
I’ve had it with the woulda, coulda, shoulda these Winters have been. If you
live in an area like New England, or the Mid-West, than the above is completely
inapplicable to you, so nevermind.
March is my least favorite month precisely because of the
reasons above. It rarely snows here, but it’s sure as hell dreary. Every
Fucking Day. It’s also my birthday month, and as they go, it’s either 30
degrees and sleeting or 95 degrees and I can’t find my summer clothes for the
life of me that day.
This month has also been wildly difficult for too many reasons to
post, all of them having to do with the convivial frolic that is divorce. It will get better.
This brings me to the I Cannot Wait For Spring Or Else post,
the one I wanted to post now. That’s when I give up any hope of fireplace-cozy
snowstorms and hot cocoa and frosty walks in the snow where I need to stop
every 2 minutes to take a photo, igniting the wrath of all with me. It’s all
gone, no running to the store for a Duraflame (just in case), no layering. It’s
over. Hope is gone. Now is the time for flower catalogs and for smelling some
dirt.